After a week of being on a high I am now crashing on this Tuesday, post Super Bowl Monday for me. I am questioning everything unnecessarily and overthinking a lot. The stages they tell you about study abroad are true, believe them. I love that I am here and I really am having a great time, but I am not immune to homesickness and the struggles that come with being 10,000 miles away from everyone you love.
Being in a long distance relationship the majority of the year is hard, but not as bad when you can visit each other every couple weeks. It’s not as easy knowing you won’t see each other for 4 months. That being said, one of my biggest annoyances is when people assume that by being in this relationship, he is holding me back from “experiencing” hate to break it to ya, but my experiences aren’t altered because I can’t make out with random Australians. Yes this is hard, and it is going to continue to be one of the hardest things I’ve yet to do. No he’s not holding me back, I’m having an amazing time, I am allowed to miss him, without that meaning I shouldn’t be with him. I do not need your uneducated opinion on how to live my life and who I should and should not be with and when. This is straining indeed, but it takes away from nothing. I appreciate the gesture that you want what’s best for me, but I know what I want and I know what I can handle.
Sorry for my rant, just thought I would get it out here. I am looking forward to Melbourne and am struggling with money this week.