I want to find out what I’m good at. I want to find what I am supposed to teach, what I am here for. I want to have a talent, something I can do better than most. What will allow me to make my mark on the world.
I wish I could draw. I don’t have the skill or the patience but I think it’s a wonderful thing to know how to do. I wish I could sing. I wish I was a good public speaker like the men on my Dad’s side of my family. That skill is crucial. I wish I could be in sales or real estate like my Mom’s side of the family. I wish I was more into politics like my mom or technology like my dad. Clearly, I wish I was better at writing blog titles…(I bet you thought I forgot to name it but NOPE totally intentional).
I do know what I want and what I like. I like traveling. I like Jack. I like my friends and family. I like spending money. I like surprises. I like writing, letters especially. I like birthdays and holidays. I like wearing sweat pants 90% of the time but having occasions to dress up for. I like old Disney movies. I like food, of all kinds, I don’t discriminate. I like the beach. I like hiking and yoga. I like shopping. I like 80’s music. I like taking photos and looking at them. I like sports, football is my favorite. I like getting seconds. I like drive-in movies, and going to the movies in general. I like nature. I like being active in other ways than going to the gym. I like a lot of things.
I want equality. I want to find happiness. I want my loved ones to find happiness. I want to be successful in the career of my choice. I want to skydive. I want to find a way to force myself to wear my retainer. I want to be able to focus. I want to not have anxiety. I want to give back and volunteer. I want to explore the world. I want to climb mountains. I want to feel whole.
I don’t really even know where I’m going with this. I just wanted to write. It scares me how fast time goes in a person’s life. I don’t know hardly anything, a few things I do know though are that I don’t want to live with regrets about what I didn’t do, I want to do what makes me happy and what I like to do. I have to learn to accept things I can’t change, and I have to love every day like it’s my last.
If I have one suggestion to anyone feeling lost or unhappy, make a list of things you want and things you like, and do them.
I have no idea where this came from. I just get inspired by just being here, and being alone. Tumblr inspires me to look at things differently. I use it to compile other people’s art and photos into something that makes me happy. I promise I’m really not trying to self-promote but here it is IF you want to look. I mean I’ve literally had that account since I was like 13. http://mel53-96.tumblr.com/
Anyways sorry for posting about two totally random things twice in one day. I have no idea if anyone even reads this, and while it scares me that anyone can, it’s part of the fun.