Wrote this during one of my moments, may delete it later if I decide to read it back.
So this post is not about Thailand, but I promise I will write that one shortly. This is kind of an emotional post because I’m feeling all the feels right now so bear with me on my rant. It’s my birthday, I just finished traveling a whole different part of the world, and oh I just watched collateral beauty, so if that doesn’t explain my feels idk what does. Also I just saw a shooting star from my plane window. I just want to explain something for a second. It’s so important to remember that there is so much beauty in life. In feeling anything there is beauty. There is beauty in pain and darkness and happiness and light. Expressing emotion and seeing the world and the people in it from different perspectives is how we are meant to live. It is important to take a step back and think of it differently when we are in pain. There is no way I could put my thoughts and feelings into words that could be comprehended right now but I’m still going to try. You have to appreciate all the offerings and experiences life has. Meeting all these new people from all over the world and hearing their stories has helped open my eyes, as well as seeing beautiful places and feeling the things I felt when I saw them. People are blinded by money and status, and the new age of technology doesn’t help. Life in my opinion is not about those things, life is about forming connections, feeling emotion, expressing that emotion, and taking everything you can out of it. I’m trying to capture this moment I’m having by writing about it so that maybe one day I can look back and have the same moment again. A realization that the trivial things I worry about daily are so small in comparison to what really matters, but it’s all part of life and it all adds up. I feel so lucky today with all the people who reached out to say happy birthday. Such a simple act that means so much to me. It shows the connections I’ve made and the people that care. I cherish my relationships. For when the money and status don’t matter anymore they will always be there. My age group is too focused and stressed on getting the best internship and figuring what job they’re going to have after college. Don’t get me wrong I am too, but I have to take a step back and realize it doesn’t fucking matter (I’m sorry for the language!) I love for the moments I’m having now. Moments like how you feel after watching a good movie, having a good conversation, doing a good deed, eating a good meal, getting let down, being overcome with emotion, finishing a test, looking at the stars, receiving or writing a letter, long road trips alone. Little things that make you smile, cry, laugh, think, swoon, etc. These moments and feelings are what make up our lives. It’s the people who care more about you than their Instagram feed who are willing to show some pda to make you smile on your birthday. That’s actually special. When people do things for you for solely your benefit, keep them around. This post is all over the place but I just wanted to get out what was on my mind. So if you’ve made it this far thank you, and please take everything out of your life. I know I’m only 21 (as of today) so what do I know, but thanks for entertaining me. There is beauty in moments even in the least likely moments like a death. I’m not going to read this back now so again, hope there aren’t too many errors in my spelling and grammar to make it unbearable. Thanks for reading. Take everything out of life. The love, the pain, the joy, and anger we feel all have a purpose and they all help us to understand and become who we are. I’m so thankful for every person that has touched my life and continues to do so everyday.