From doormat to FEMALE

Well extroverted introvert fans friends and haters, I have officially given up being a doormat for good. You’d be surprised to know that sometimes people confuse me for a place to wipe their dirty lying feet!! Crazy right? Anyways!! This post is dedicated to a TRUE and utter fresh start.

First, I bet you’re wondering what the title of this post means… well I was looking for a clever antonym to doormat to go along with my newfound power (I was thinking along the lines of a more powerful object that you can not walk on) however synonyms.com showed that an antonym for a doormat is a female, I shit you not. The two definitions listed for doormat were “a mat placed outside an exterior door for wiping the shoes before entering” and “a person who is physically weak and ineffectual.” I resonated with both. However it turns out that the opposite of both these definitions is a fucking female ( you know what WASN’T up there? MALE). So I will embrace this news and announce that I am very excited to begin this courageous journey of a transition from doormat to female. 

That was an unnecessarily long introduction to avoid starting the body of this post. The point I was so equivocally trying to make is that being a woman is awesome, and every woman deserves to treat themselves with respect and feel like the boss ass bitches that they are. 

I am sorry I’ve been so busy lately, I still have like four blogs sitting in limbo that I’m not sure if I’ll ever post, and I’ve had so much that I’ve wanted to tell you/write about. I can make excuses for not having time but I need to start making time for the things I want to do. You can always make time if you really want to. Excuses are probably one of my biggest pet peeves yet I still use them daily. There’s no excuse for excuses. That being said, I will be blogging more! 

This post is for me, and for all the other strong females stuck in a toxic cycle that feels impossible to get out of. I swear to god you can do it and you deserve better. Is this what you want for the rest of your life? There is so much more out there for you. 

“Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear”

Our lives are in our own hands. Control what you can control, and handle what you can’t in the best way possible. 

Most importantly, surround yourself with people who bring positivity into your life. People can be real shitty sometimes. Seek out the relationships that build you up, I can’t blog about this concept enough, and I probably won’t stop here. It is crucial (for me at least) to have personal connections with real people who REALLY give a fuck about you. I did not realize how incredible it is to have someone care about you until I had the misfortune of being blindsided realizing the person who I trusted to care about me never really did care for me at all. BUT if that did not happen, I wouldn’t be making the realizations that I am now, I wouldn’t have developed these amazing bonds with the REAL HONEST TO GOD GOOD people in my life. So thank you to all the people who have shot me down or betrayed me because you still brought me to where I am today and I am still learning everyday from the lessons I took away from our encounter(s). I’ll say this line that I’m sure I’ve said in the past, everyone you meet comes into your life for a reason, to teach you a lesson, or to stay for good. We don’t always know which, but regardless it’s all part of the journey. Putting it all in perspective can be really hard sometimes, but allowing yourself to step back and change up your view, even just slightly, can help how you are feeling. I am really trying to convert my built up anger from those who have betrayed, humiliated, or hurt me into something more powerful to better myself. I am no expert and I have no idea if I will be successful, but this is what I want to do, and that is the best revenge there is… or so I keep telling myself in order to keep my inner bitch in check. Well see 🤷🏼‍♀️

I’ve had a long emotional weekend, and it feels good to write, so I’m sure I’ll do some more this week. Thank you for reading. Thank you for being a surprisingly blissful part of my life. 

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